I was a human of extremes.
Shocking, I know. ;)
Don't get me wrong, emotional peaks and valleys are my familiar so there is a pull for me to go there still in certain circumstances.
The difference now is I am more aware. I am also medicated.
Learning I live with ADHD was incredibly liberating and a bit of a gut shot.
I SUFFERED for 50yrs believing I wasn't good enough/smart enough/capable enough to live the life I desired. Learning that I wasn't fundamentally flawed but rather that my brain worked differently, I opened to the idea of giving myself GRACE.
Before, when I felt so incredibly broken, I perceived the concept "To give oneself grace" on a learning path as a socially acceptable way to let oneself off the hook.
Now that the constant cacophony of lack and chaos in my head is mostly silenced, learning has a whole new vibe.
I HAVE ROOM TO FAIL.
In fact, failure is now evidence that I am daring myself to try something new rather than evidence of who I am.
Giving myself grace empowers me to stay on the hook, to fail again, to change my mind, and to show up again and again with the new rad moves I learned from wiping out.
GRACE EMPOWERS ME TO FAIL WITH INTENTION, PURPOSE AND STYLE. ;)